Alright, so I'm not the most faithful blogger... But to tell the truth, I've been lying to myself about my future for some time. What I want to do, what I'm capable of, and how I'm going to achieve meaning in my life.
As I was perusing Netflix the other night, I came across Stephen Hawking's Grand Design. I've always been fascinated by the man and his mind, so I thought "Why the hell not?!" Life altering... That's all I can say... He was discussing the meaning of life, for him life is about choices. What we choose creates our perception of reality, therefore generating meaning. As I was watching, it all clicked. Yes I went to OU to study film and yes I want to work in film. So, why was I languishing in boredom considering careers that I did not want??? Simple answer, I was afraid of making choices, and ultimately afraid that my life would have no meaning... But, if one must generate their own meaning (something I have believed for a long time, but it never really clicked) then I MUST pursue my meaning. That meaning is in film, writing & directing (not editing, hate editing), so I got online and started looking for the beginning of the rest of my life...
So, short post, but a testament to my willingness to accept responsibility for creating meaning in my life. Thank you, Mr. Hawking for so elegantly pointing that out.